I was taught to write my thoughts on paper while being part of the Alcoholics Anonymous  Community for over 20 years. I am 14 years sober, and to the old timers, the real alcoholics like myself in Alcoholics Anonymous, the men and women that  joined AA because they were sick with the disease alcoholism, the men and women that truly wanted to be sober, and to pay it forward. To this people,  I am a miracle. It was because of my chanting of NAM MYOHO RENGE KYO  that awakened my conscious to the fact that I was very sick with the disease of alcoholism. God Almighty the Budha  led me to  an AA room in West Hollywood. It was because of the Maha Mantra HARE KRSNA HARE KRSNA KRSNA KRSNA HARE HARE HARE RAMA HARE RAMA RAMA RAMA HARE HARE that I was able to CLEAR the karmic memory of past lives  that would 'ABSOLUTELY'  keep my soul caged in this world or this minute universe. A world in which animals eat each other in order to survive while inflicting the most horrific pain. A world in which if I fall on the ground, I may break a bone and experience more horrific pain. I hate pain. I hate pain with all my heart with all my soul with all my strength. 

Because of the MAHA MANTRA I will not be incarnating on this earth or any material planet again and I will continue to help other living entities to leave the cycle of reincarnation while I am still here, and when my soul leaves my body and goes to the Brahmayoti I will finally retire. I despise pain and suffering of any kind. I hate to see injustice. I hate to witness severely mentally ill closeted homosexuals males, atheist nazy  business men creating more suffering for others such as the suffering and the more disease that was sent to the Republic of Colombia with the millions of low quality COVID 19 vaccines that have cause some close friends of mine, to the develop other illnesses, you do not hear about the cases of the sick Colombian people that became more sick after being forced to be vaccinated with COVID 19 vacines, you don't know about these cases because the Christian Colombian are being blocked and silenced by the Atheist Nazy C.I.A from Great Britain, the European Union, Asia, The United States Of America, nazy homosexuals who have forced Christian Colombian people to install bars in front of their windows, bars in front of their doors in order to prevent themselves from being robbed of things that they need for their survival or comfort.  The COVID 19  vaccines were sent by nazy military scientists from Europe and from the United States Of America, as well as Asia,  these scientists are both men and women African American, Caucasian, Asian. Closeted homosexual C.I.A nazy military scientists  who perceive The Christian Colombian people as being inferior animals 'guinea pigs' ' cheap labor' 'slave labor' that can be exploited and experimented on.

 Let me explain the use of the word exploitation in this journal entry,  The lower grade COVID 19 vaccines caused the Christian Colombian people to develop more illnesses and then the nazy military C.I.A scientists  are banking on the medicine and treatments that Christian Colombian people have to pay for in order to cure the side affects of the Covid 19 lower level vaccines that were sent to The Republic Of Colombia by the global multi racial nazy C.I.A military scientists.

While  I was working in a assisted living in the state of Hawaii feeding elderly people . The Caucasian American elderly people that I worked for. People that I liked and cared for,  demanded that only the highest quality of the Covid 19 vaccines was administered to them, these elderly people had access to very expensive lawyers. The Christian Colombian people were not given this choice they were simply sent the lowest forms of Covid 19 vaccines that are now causing illness in the bodies of humans  not only in the Republic Of Colombia but in the United States Of America. Yesterday, an Italian lady asked me where I was from? I told her I was from Colombia and that I was raised in The United States Of America. I am Colombian American. I will Not deny the United States Of America as my home country EVER nor will I resent the American people that I consider the American people my family, a family that have been severely abused by the nazy C.I.A children of project paper clip. This nazy atheist closeted homosexuals have forced the American people to become complaisant with their merciless human rights violations in every country, as clearly seen with their narrative 'WAR ON DRUGS' in The Republic of Colombia that started around 1970, when the Nazy C.I.A forced ignorant Colombian farmers to grow Coca leaf in order to create Cocaine, Crack Cocaine, Crystal Meth, and make trillions out of the sales of these drug to the American people. Nazy C.I.A a Global network of very wealthy drug trafficker with their head quarters in Great Britain, in Asia, and In the United States Of America a group of homosexuals that have ruined so many lives and forced people like my mentally ill mother and my two female cousins, Carolina, and Monica to have to migrate to The United States Of America in order to be treated with some dignity and respect.

I have a resentment towards the Atheist C.I.A nazy military scientists 'the children of project paper clip'  that secretly continue to conduct human experiments ( why? because the nazy atheistcloseted homosexuals that ousted me from my home the State Of Hawaii are part of this harmful group that have destroy the lives 8.5 billion people) experiments in the hidden bases in the United States Of America, Asia,  and other places in this world that former Director of Intelligence Tulsi Gabbard disclosed, bases and  bio laboratories that the current United States Of America generals and European Generals and some of their Top intelligence community, that includes very wealthy atheist business men  are only, able to visit. I have a resentment towards C.I.A closeted homosexuals human nazys children of project paper clip walking in bodies of African Americans, Asians, Caucasians that are convinced that they are the pure god of this earth and that with knowledge have allowed the  business of slaughter houses where live stock in being torture and slaughter for meat consumption. If a human closeted homosexual can torture and force breed live stock such as cows, so that he can enjoy shewing on flesh and bones and sucking the blood, and sucking the marrow of the bones animals, and then hire women to work in slaughter houses for him,  he most certainly can harm any living entity including his own family without a problem. These men have been told since the GET GO that in order to achieve peace of this earth and in order to travel to other planets and other universes humanity has to become a vegetarian civilization that serves god first . Space X technology will not succeed while humanity continues to be programmed to stay in a lower frequency  with 'meat eating' and certainly NOT with  the intentional use of Illicit sex as weapon. And definitely NOT with the oppression of the Christian Colombia people.  A human atheist nazy  homosexual cannot copy the way that god almighty relates to all the souls (jivas) of all living entities ANCHITA VEDHA AVEDA.  A nazy C.I.A atheist homosexual is not different from the Christian Colombia people that have been oppressed and exploited mercilessly, and programmed to stay within lower animal behavior such as pigs, and dogs,  in order for the nazy C.I.A military scientists  to feel like he is the god of this earth because he can to hoard all the wealth for just himself and his homosexuals and the stupid bitches. Wealth obtain from the suffering and slaughters of others. Ask yourself why would a nazy atheist homosexual that tortures animals in slaughter houses care about anyone's evolution and achieving lasting peace and why would I support the complete de-evolution of the human race, when I am part of the human gene pool (vaishnava aparada)