I came to believe that a power greater than myself would restore my mind to sanity, and it was in the 12 step program, where I was advised to write, and to express my feelings and thoughts and to talk about the things that made me drink liquor, and, I do feel a great relief when I am able to write in my personal journal. 

 I was raised in a culture in which the distortion of religious texts such as the bible, misogyny,  discrimination and racism has damage the mind of my friends and family. This form of brainwashing, has allowed for a lot of the people that I have known personally,  to be complaisant with severe abuse of human rights violations, because most of us  born in third world countries such as the Republic Of Colombia  have had to watch horrific crimes against god fearing intelligent women such as Gloria Lara, that very wealthy men in positions of authority, have ordered their hitmen, or their men in guerillas to brutally torture strong intelligent women,  with the use of gang rape, or rape and horrific phycological torture, and this men have never had to face justice. 

The use of phycological torture and sexual torture are very effective ways that atheist closeted homosexual males members and affiliates of the billionaire corporations and   military scientistic corporations in foreign governments such as  governments in North America, Europa and Asian countries,  working very intimately  with the beyond greedy selfish and embarrassing billionaires of the Republic Of Colombia that are all part of the Central Intelligence Agency have intentionally supervised the use of horrific torture against women such as Gloria Lara, and this men have broadcasted their tortures of women  in their newspapers, radio, or television for the  god fearing Christian people of the Republic Of Colombia to see, as a 'dire warning', of what this beyond ignorant wealthy Colombian people and the foreign investors through their henchmen,  will do,  to anyone that will report their corruption, even if that person is a very wealthy good god fearing Christian woman such as Gloria Lara.

phycological torture and sexual torture has been used for centuries, and this form of torture became normalized in the Republic of Colombia after War World  2, closeted homosexual  men who think are god, as seen very clearly in nazy Germany, with the help of  extremely wealthy closeted homosexual atheist males  posing as Muslim , and atheist males posing as Christian , have intentionally allowed the most horrific crimes against women and little girls during War World 2 and made trillions out of the sales of weapons during War World 2,  knowing very well that by traumatizing and disabling women with horrific sexual violence and disconnecting women from god almighty, only some  men,  would be able to hoard all the wealth for just themselves, their boys,  and some of  their families,  and only some men,  would be able to administrate the military and the governments of the world positioning themselves as god or chosen by god. 

God chose men to take care of the human civilization with women, god did not tell men to torture, rape or exploit women. God almighty, created justice, men have disobeyed god and out of envy has brought upon himself and everyone else severe karmic retribution . In the Republic Of Colombia the destruction of the sacred divine feminine aspect of god, started  before or during the  time of the Inca and Maya civilization  some native people have testified that some indigenous people, such as people belonging to the  Inca or Tyrona civilizations, such as Tyrona priestesses where also brutally raped and torture by closeted homosexual envious indigenous  male priests. Years ago, I saw a very old picture of a indigenous tribe in South America that hang an indigenous  woman in a wooden pole and inserted a live snake inside her vagina to punish her. Most of us know that the 'snake' is the symbol of kundalini energy that lies dormant where our reproductive organs are. Indigenous tribes are very much aware of what kundalini energy is, ' the coiled serpent' inside the human female body and the male human body. I will never forget seeing that image of that indigenous woman hanging on a pole with man inserting a live snake inside her vagina intentionally using a sadistic ritual that roots the destruction of women's  connection with god almighty.

Very sick and dangerous indigenous  mentally ill males, forced indigenous women, say Inca, or Tyrona priestesses  to instead become breeding animals for male children for their male warrior armies, and because there is divine justice  'Karmic Retribution'.  Since, human beings chose to behave like animals then they are judged like animals and  in animal societies,  there is a bigger bully for a bully. Later on came the extremely  pig ignorant closeted homosexual Spaniards and Portuguese  conquistadores, and these men literally fed indigenous people   Incas  or descendants from Incas to hungry dogs.  The Spaniards and Portuguese  continue the destruction of the divine sacred feminine aspect of god almighty, manifested in human women by using gang rape and rape, and this is why, all people in  Central America, and South America are considered inbreeds, Europeans consider Latino people an inferior race,  a bunch of very ignorant men and women,  that  are ugly and stupid, a mix of races that came out gang rape and rape the inferior race of very ugly people. unwanted slaves "animals"

 Everything happens for a reason, indigenous human males are very misogynistic and brutally abusive towards women and their children, and this is why god almighty punished the Incas, the Mayan, Tyronas, Astecs and all the other indigenous tribes with karmic retribution. Furthermore, God almighty punished the Spanish and the Portuguese,  followed by  the  beyond ignorant Germans and Russians, Israelites, Palestinians, and the Japanese the lowest forms of Asians and Europeans that intentionally massacred and gang raped  the divine feminine aspect of god almighty represented by women and little girls.  hurting the Sacred divine feminine  aspect of god almighty represented by god fearing  military women ( Kshatriyas) and religious women (Brahmanas)  is not an option  ... and that is just the way it works, do on to others as you would have them do unto you. 

Some men and women would argue. Well, then, Gloria Lara, in another life when Gloria Lara was incarnated in the body of a man,  kidnapped and tortured , raped and executed another woman,  and this is why she had to experience karmic retribution, in her life time while being incarnated in a female human body.  Gloria Lara had to be sexually tortured, psychologically tortured and executed by human males. This type of reasoning to  justify crimes against women has been used by  human intelligent misogynistic atheist closeted homosexuals males and the  atheist women that support misogyny to continue to brainwash the mind of both men and women into allowing crimes against women to be normalized in every society. 

Let me confirm to you, and write this down, there are people who are victims to mentally ill men, and the stupid women that support them,  this is why, there is divine justice, and there is the human justice system. The human justice system is suppose to apply justice to 'AlL" and to  judge all criminals and to  incarcerate all criminals  or executed all criminals.  even if they are billionaires,  even if they are Presidents of nations or even if they are generals of Armies, even if they are high ranking priests. In  Gloria Lara's case the human justice system failed her. Gloria Lara's death was not karmic retribution,  it was a  planned event orchestrated by greedy atheist human males who think that they are god, and that atheist greedy wealthy  men can chose how and when another person gets persecuted,  punished or executed. Gloria Lara's sexual torture and execution was a direct attack at the mercy of men who envy and hate intelligent wealthy women. Men in positions of authority, that slander and get women beat up, raped, tortured or executed because women talk too much.